Another Almost Placement

Today we came home from picking up J from parenting time to a beeping answering machine.  A worker from DHS left a message wondering if we would be interested in two girls.  But that was all she said.  So while I monitored kid activity in the living room, my hubby returned her call in the bedroom.  Several minutes later he returned to tell me the news.  Two girls, the younger two of a sibling set of three.  They were removed yesterday and in an emergency home [basically one who will take kids of any age and condition on a temporary basis until they can find longer term foster parents].  One was 6 years old and the other 5.  The reason for removal was based on allegations against an adult member in the home.  So if these allegations were proven false, they would return home soon.  Otherwise, it could have gone a number of directions. 

After hearing what the worker had to say, my first thought was no.... and Tim's first thought was yes.... this posed a bit of a problem for us and quite the discussion.  I had a hard time saying yes, partially because of the age of the children.  After all, when we first were licensed, it was under the assumption that we would take kids between 0 and 3 years of age, and maybe, only maybe consider older kids of they were part of a sibling group where one of the kids were in the age range specified.  And here we were going much outside of it.  What would they find to do in our home?  Where would they sleep?  What would they wear?  And then there is school to consider and we'd probably have to do the transportation to and from school for them.  But not only those minor things, I also really struggled knowing that by taking on two, we would only have room for one once J left and thus we were significantly reducing our chance of having a little one... a fresh baby from the hospital or even just a young child.  It kinda felt like giving up on a dream if we took these two girls. 

Now that I think back on these reasons, they are fairly superficial.  I tend to way over think things... all the time... and have done this for a long time... And I fully believe that I was doing that again.  I feel like that there is a fine line between thinking things through and following God's leading.

Well, after talking for a long time we came to an agreement.  We'd say yes and see where it took us.  Tim made the call.  Then the phone rang again.  The allegations were found to be false.  They'd be going back home. 

So we've said yes to a 3 and nearly 5 year old, only to have them stay home... now a 5 and 6 year old, only to have them go back home... who will we get called about next and how old with they be??  Care to make guesses? :)