My thermometer outside is reading 60 degrees! Granted, it is in the sun, but still, that means that when I am standing in the sun [which I am so glad is out today!] I am feeling 60 degree temperature! Although I am sure that the beautiful weather is God's way of blessing lots of people, it couldn't have come at a better time for me.
This last week has been filled with ups and downs and back again. We had complications with the miscarriage, including wondering if it had really happened at all. After finding out it had, I was schedule for surgery to finish it later this coming week. But finally, last night, it looks like we don't need it and that I have passed everything that I need to. Still waiting for doctor verification [which since it happened late Saturday night, we don't have yet] but I think I might be in the clear. And I am very relieved.
Relieved... it's a weird thing. Should I feel guilty for being relieved that this whole ordeal is over? After all, this was supposed to be the pregnancy for our first child. But after seeing scans and seeing an empty sac without a baby inside, it was obvious that this pregnancy was meant to have a shorter time to completion, and with a different ending that we originally hoped and planned. After two weeks since the miscarriage scare and reality first began, I am relieved that we have an answer, that it looks to be finished and that we can finally move on and let the healing begin.
And what better way to let healing begin than with 60 degree weather in the sun!
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